Surrender

My body is now completely in rhythm with the new time zone after walking six lengthy and tiring days on the transformational Camino de Santiago once again—and FINALLY, I have time to pour my heart out into words.

Yet, as I sit here, there are no words. Only words that may exist somewhere outside of myself. Like distant background noise you can’t quite hear—or comprehend, only because you choose not to. But I do sense something deeply profound. A sort of empty bliss with an overwhelming sense of content. As though I’m right where I’m supposed to be.

And it’s not because I’m away with my Luc. It's just like any other day for me; knowing I deeply belong to something far greater than the mind can possibly comprehend.

Speaking of the mind, I’m also not conceptualizing anything. Moreover, not fighting anything I can’t control. It’s called SURRENDER—and it’s become a life habit. Living in my heart, letting go of the things I cannot control, while being at peace within myself and (mostly) everything outside of me (knowing I must find peace even in the worst situations). The reason I’m bringing this up is I began to fully understand this sort of surrender right here on the Camino de Santiago the first time I walked it. Spending so much time with mySELF; letting go of any unnecessary thoughts that may arise, while feeling interconnected to ALL of life. And now, here I am, once again, back on the Camino for a fourth life-changing experience. Back for a second time with the person who can send me into a downward spiral—IF I would allow it. Most often our biggest challenge lies with the person we have chosen a life with—that’s precisely why I call Luc my greatest teacher.

And it’s a beautiful thing when you get to a place in your life that no matter who you’re with, or where you are, or what your situation may be, you’re simply presently here as a willing spectator, making the best out of “what is” (for instance, I broke a toe four nights ago by running into a piece of furniture in the dark, yet I taped my toes together and continued to walk). Accepting the things you cannot control is key; whatever, whenever, wherever. And when something upsetting arises, like when Luc repeatedly and incorrectly completes my sentences, or he tells me how “I” feel—when he has no idea, I’ve simply learned to just PAUSE. It’s as though there’s a motionless breeze that forms within and around me, as I let any unnecessary thought dissolve into the background noise I choose to ignore; simultaneously bringing me back to the surrender that keeps me strangely joyful. People talk about the power of the mind. I think the real power is knowing when to lose the mind. Not trying so hard to conceptualize everything and stress over the things we can’t control. The real power is humbly living in your heart and staying there.

Surrender, surrender, surrender.

That’s all I have for now.

I’ll be back with stories, pictures, and videos soon. :)

My body is now completely in rhythm with the new time zone after walking six lengthy and tiring days on the transformational Camino de Santiago once again—and FINALLY, I have time to pour my heart out into words. Yet, as I sit here, there are no words. Only words that may exist somewhere outside of myself. Like distant background noise you can’t quite hear—or comprehend, only because you choose not to. But I do sense something deeply profound. A sort of empty bliss with an overwhelming sense of content. As though I’m right where I’m supposed to be. And it’s not because I’m away with my Luc. It's just like any other day for me; knowing I deeply belong to something far greater than the mind can possibly comprehend. Speaking of the mind, I’m also not conceptualizing anything. Moreover, not fighting anything I can’t control. It’s called SURRENDER—and it’s become a life habit. Living in my heart, letting go of the things I cannot control, while being at peace within myself and (mostly) everything outside of me (knowing I must find peace even in the worst situations). The reason I’m bringing this up is I began to fully understand this sort of surrender right here on the Camino de Santiago the first time I walked it. Spending so much time with mySELF; letting go of any unnecessary thoughts that may arise, while feeling interconnected to ALL of life. And now, here I am, once again, back on the Camino for a fourth life-changing experience. Back for a second time with the person who can send me into a downward spiral—IF I would allow it. Most often our biggest challenge lies with the person we have chosen a life with—that’s precisely why I call Luc my greatest teacher. And it’s a beautiful thing when you get to a place in your life that no matter who you’re with, or where you are, or what your situation may be, you’re simply presently here as a willing spectator, making the best out of “what is” (for instance, I broke a toe four nights ago by running into a piece of furniture in the dark, yet I taped my toes together and continued to walk). Accepting the things you cannot control is key; whatever, whenever, wherever. And when something upsetting arises, like when Luc repeatedly and incorrectly completes my sentences, or he tells me how “I” feel—when he has no idea, I’ve simply learned to just PAUSE. It’s as though there’s a motionless breeze that forms within and around me, as I let any unnecessary thought dissolve into the background noise I choose to ignore; simultaneously bringing me back to the surrender that keeps me strangely joyful. People talk about the power of the mind. I think the real power is knowing when to lose the mind. Not trying so hard to conceptualize everything and stress over the things we can’t control. The real power is humbly living in your heart and staying there. Surrender, surrender, surrender. That’s all I have for now. I’ll be back with stories, pictures, and videos soon. :)

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My body has finally adjusted to the new time zone after completing the transformative Camino de Santiago once again. Now, with some much-needed time on my hands, I can pour my heart out into words.

Yet, as I sit here, words fail me. They exist somewhere outside of myself, like distant background noise that eludes comprehension. However, I sense something profoundly meaningful—a sense of empty bliss and overwhelming contentment, as if I am exactly where I am meant to be.

This feeling has nothing to do with being away with my partner, Luc. It is just another day for me, knowing that I belong to something far greater than the grasp of the mind.

Speaking of the mind, I find myself free from conceptualizing and resisting what I cannot control. Surrender has become a way of life. I reside in my heart, releasing the burdens I cannot influence. I am at peace within myself and with the world around me, striving to find serenity even in the most challenging circumstances. I first began to grasp this concept of surrender on my initial journey along the Camino de Santiago. Spending ample time with myself, I learned to let go of unnecessary thoughts and felt interconnected with all of life. And now, here I am, embarking on the Camino once again for my fourth life-changing experience, accompanied by Luc for the second time. He has proven to be my greatest teacher, even though he can sometimes test me like no other.

It's a beautiful thing when you reach a point in your life where, regardless of who you are with, where you are, or what your circumstances may be, you become a willing spectator, making the most of "what is." For example, just four nights ago, I broke my toe by colliding with a piece of furniture in the dark. Nevertheless, I taped my toes together and continued walking. Accepting what we cannot control is the key—whenever, wherever, and whatever it may be. And when something upsetting arises, such as Luc repeatedly finishing my sentences incorrectly or presuming to know how I feel, I have learned to pause. In that moment, a stillness envelops me, allowing unnecessary thoughts to dissolve into the background noise I choose to ignore. It brings me back to surrender and keeps me strangely joyful. People often talk about the power of the mind, but I believe the true power lies in knowing when to release the mind's grip. We don't need to strain to comprehend everything or stress over matters beyond our control. The real power lies in humbly residing in our hearts and remaining there.

Surrender, surrender, surrender.

That's all I have for now.

Stay tuned for stories, pictures, and videos coming soon! :)